Thursday, May 12, 2016

A short, but true, story

When I was a very little girl, even before kindergarten, my mother used to leave me with a neighbor. The neighbor was nice enough, and one day she gave me a gift that I absolutely treasured.

It was a magic Faery wand. It was made of clear plastic and was filled with stars and moons and pink glitter that swam around mysteriously. I loved it so much...she told me that I'd need to keep it with me and take care of it, and never leave it outside or the Faeries would take it back. Believing her, I took it home, waving it around all over the place.

My father was, and still can be, a very mean and short-tempered man. He yelled at me for waving the wand around too close to my brothers. One day, after doing so one to many times, he ripped the wand out of my grip and threw it out the door and into the woods. I resolved to go look for it the next day.

Comb the woods and small field nearby,I never found it. I felt terrible- I felt like I had failed to protect this precious gift from the faeries and they had taken it back.

Of course, I know now that it was just a glitter wand, and you can get them for 5-10 bucks online. Still, the experience lived with me for years through my childhood, and I never forgot the feeling.

Wednesday, May 4, 2016

Foraging, Harvesting and Herbal Work

Needless to say, I am not a witch. I do not want to do witchcrafty things. However, that doesn't mean that I can ignore the superior technique of many herbalists who happen to also be witches, or the fact that much legitimate faery lore has made it's way into modern-day witchcraft.

I got rid of all my herbs and oils when I converted to Christianity...not because the materials themselves were bad, but because I had used them in all manner of magick, and I couldn't remember what was for health reasons and what was for magick reasons...oh man, it was hard to do.

In time, I discovered that the need to work with and even commune with plants still ran well in my blood...I missed them. I missed my poisons and I missed my weeds and I missed my flowers. I missed a lot of that, and in a way, it's come back stronger than ever. It's only...now I have to discover a way to preserve that relationship, to keep to the things that I know to be true, without violating Christian tenets. Which means no magick- which is no big loss. BUT, there are things that I know other Christians will scream bloody murder over, yet seem to appear in our own literature- spirit flight, ecstatic experiences and communion not just with God, but with a variety of saints (or a lot of the dead...just don't go summoning them, okay?), angels, faery and other spirits where applicable. I love the folklore attached to my faith, but you have to be very careful with it. (Working on a post about Eithne and St. Patrick, as well as Cuchulain and St. Patrick...St. Patrick was the shiznit, from what I can tell...)

Bottom line...if God made these plants to have natural properties that assist you with certain things, why is it bad to use them, if they're used rightly and not abused? Are the flying ointments of the witches always bad? Are the use of tinctures as medicines or aids to meditation really suspect? If St. Hildegard of Bingen can promote the use of herbs and stones as spiritual aids, then why can't anyone else?



I've really been enjoying getting my hands back on my herbs and oils, making tinctures and getting ready to do ointments and other herbal mixtures. I love it! However, treading the line between magical and folkloric is difficult. I have to be sure of my reasons for making the tinctures and ointments, and I have to be honest enough to know if I'm treading dangerous ground. I'm not always that honest.

I want to share two tinctures I'm working on right now. The first is more medicinal than anything- an experiment with foraged stuff that I wanted to try. The second has a primary purpose that is folkloric and mystical. As I said, it's a fine line. No poison experiments...for now.





Dandelion Spring

So, first, I had foraged about 2-3 cups worth of fresh, yellow dandelions. These petals can be hard to dry out, and they have a sweet, light taste compared to the bitterness of the leaves and roots. Foraging for them was as challenging as sitting in my front yard. In addition, I added:

About 3 tbsp dried red rose petals
About 3 tbsp dried rose hips
About 2 tbsp wildflower honey, from a local source.

My first tincture...gimme a break! Rather than using vodka or rum, I decided to use Christian Brother's Brandy (or other brandies). The mixture has been sitting about a month and I'll be ready to bottle it soon and see how it turned out.

It's medicinal purposes are immune building and as a digestif. Dandelions are rich in vitamins and chemicals which serve as anti-inflammatory, anti-viral and anti-oxidant triggers. It's good for promoting effective digestion. Rose hips are very rich in vitamin C

It's also a mood lifter! Dandelion has been shown to help improve poor mood, and rose has also been shown to be soothing for bruised or broken hearts.

Basically, what I need right now, following my little brother's untimely death.

I did not tabulate the magickal meanings, because that's not what it's for.

Christian Faery Attunement Tincture

1 whole and fresh 3 leaved white clover
1 tsp sweet myrrh gum resin
1 tsp frankincense resin
4 tbsp mugwort
3 tbsp hawthorn berries
2 tbsp red clover
7 tbsp red rose petals
1/8 cooked/leached and chopped acorn
Apple brandy 1 1/2 cups- Harvest Apple (Virginia made)
Meade 1/2 cup- Sky River Honey Wine
Christian Brothers Brandy - 1 cup
3 tbsp wildflower honey
3 1/4 tsp holy water
1 1/2 tsp Lourdes water

I eyeballed a lot of it, but I stuck to some doses for the sake of symbolism. The three-leaved clover is for the Trinity, of course- I used white clover because it is native. 3 doses of Holy Water in the Name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit, the Lourdes water not only for the Blessed Mother, but for the faeries that are said to live there with her. 2 tsps red clover...for the Trinity, and for the Fae that love clover. Which is a bunch. The frankincense and myrrh are for the Lord (I will crush and swirl in some edible gold leaf when I strain it) but the mugwort is for the Faery, same with the acorn...it's so tannic and bitter, I only put a little in after hours of leaching. Red roses are for the Lord, the Blessed Mother and the Fae, and while the Faery connection to Hawthorn is obvious, it was also thought to be the same thorn branches that wove the Crown of Thorns.

For the actual alcohol, I put in meade, apple brandy and Christian Brother's brandy. And wildflower honey. It'll be sitting for a while yet...



For the Seelie Court

However, I am looking to try out a recipe for working with faeries on the lighter end of the spectrum...lighter, not wimpy or even necessarily polite. But here is what I'm working on...

Apple blossom
Elder blossom
Hawthorne blossom
White rose blossoms
Frankincense (small amounts)
Mistletoe (but not too much...I have had tea with very small amounts of this herb in it, but I don't advocate imitating me. It can still kill you.)
White clover flowers
White oak bark powder
Bright yellow/orange marigold

Still experimenting with substitutions and doses...I'll let you know?



How I lost my faith in the Church but remained a Catholic for the Love of God.

Is "Druid Catholic" a thing? No, it's not a thing if I want it to be...so much of neopaganism and occultism is based on that and it's literally not how it works. Despite what these groups may think, you cannot define your Universe and you cannot be your own god- to think so is utter arrogance and foolishness.

Thankfully, God and Creation are so vast and complex, you'll spend forever looking at it and you'll never know even a fraction...God especially. There are no definitions that completely encapsulate the divine.


I do believe the Catholic Church is the best we've got...that's been established.

I also believe that anything good or (once) holy in the hands of powerful and corrupt men will also become powerful and corrupt.

I also don't believe that any human institution will be totally correct 100% of the time, and the Church claims to be a divine one. Their track record is not 100%.

I think the basic message is there. But I think history and experience also shows that there are many ways to live the message, even within orthodoxy...and I think I've left that behind. I still don't know how I feel about that.

I also think that if I ignore or attempt to redefine the more shamanic parts of my mystical self (no, not magickal and never again magickal), I will probably end up crazier than I already am. I'm being ripped apart here, and no priest is well experienced enough to help me.

The "gods" are no gods, even if they think they are. But they loved me, and I loved them. I miss their friendship, if not their service (I DON'T miss their service.) There is only one God, and He is my only God, but I don't think He's going to throw a conniption if I say hello when I see Ganesha or the Morrigan. He's a jealous God, not an abusive one.

I still follow Church teachings, at least most of them. Just not the way most Catholics do.


Anyway, this is all just me thinking aloud. I may not yet take this road. But if I do, it's a finer line I'll tread, cutting the magick and polytheism out of Druidry and using it as a carrier for my Christianity. But, some ancient Druids may have done vice versa, or just as I am. So, I'm in good company.

I know who my Master is. I just have to find the method He wants me to use, and pray I don't get deluded (or further deluded) by my own will.

It's easy to do- I've looked into some of the Catholic offshoots from Rome and they are nothing but heretical...it stopped being about serving Christ and was more about serving themselves a long time ago. (Which is kind of how I see the Church, but anyway...)

There isn't anyone reading this, but I'll post my own thoughts on the catechism and what it says about the Church another time. This is just me. This is just me trying to get my bearings. This is me trying to reason myself around being both Catholic and taking up with Druidry. I'm sure orthodox Catholics would say so. But I think I can find the historical and spiritual precedents for it, if I do it CORRECTLY.



"My Druid is Christ, the Son of God.
Christ the Son of Mary, the great Abbot,
The Father, Son, and Holy Ghost;
My Possession is the King of Kings;
My Order is in Kells and Moone.
Alone am I.


(D. Macgregor, Saint Columba, Edinburgh, 1897.)"

Somehow, I think I may already be on this path, and I just haven't fully accepted it yet. Or the Eastern Rite will get me and I won't post here again. Somehow...I am not sure that will happen.

/rant.


EDIT: Reading the Catechism, there isn't a whole lot I want to argue with beyond phrasing...if that was how it worked.

Maybe my faith in the spiritual Church, instituted by Christ and which DOES express itself through the physical Church, is not dead.

My faith in people and the institutional Church is.

My faith in the arrogance of believing any one person or group of people is infallible and always 100% guided by the Holy Spirit is.

I wish the Church was what it says it is. I just cannot believe so blindly, seeing what I see.

I know that Jesus is God because He was good enough to shout through my deafness. I know the sacraments are real by His Grace.

As I said, the Church's (the human component) track record on infallibility is not 100%. Or even 85%. 

Sometimes I wonder if I'd be a better Christian as a Druid, but I feel like there is a very wide margin for error, even wider than with the Church. Nevertheless...

Saturday, April 30, 2016

Just thinking about Christians and Druids...

Me...

"I felt more comfortable talking to God in the rose hips than I did sitting in the confessional with a priest that I did not trust to listen to the pain of my confession. The sealed roses were a kinder representative for the Most High. The gentle wind touched me and dried my tears, and in that, I felt His hand. Many men claiming to represent God need to unlearn their very human unkindnesses."

Monday, April 4, 2016

St. Joan of Arc and the Fey Folk

Usually when you think about the saints and their encounters with faerie, St. Patrick or St. Columba, or many of the saints from Ireland, Scotland or even Wales or England come to mind. There are many "canon" stories as well as folk legends and other stories that describe a wide variety of interaction- from condemnation (in some of the more well known stories about St. Columba, for example) to acceptance and integration (in the case of the baptism of Eithne, a maiden of the Tuatha De Dannan, by St. Patrick).

What doesn't come to mind as often is St. Joan of Arc, the Maid of Orleans and (through God) the savior of France, and some of the evidence brought forth for her trial at the hands of the English.





The Catholic Church (which seems like it can be amazing in some cases and awful in others...coming from a Catholic) had a long list of accusations against Joan (because if Catholics are anything, it's thorough, at least), and some of the items in that list had to do with the faery folk, and her relationship to them in her adolescence.

"1) Joan claimed that fairies were not evil.
2) Joan had some of her visions of St Margaret and St Catherine near a fairy tree and a fairy fountain, the implication being that they were fairies i.e. demons.
3) Jean danced around said tree and left garlands of flowers there as sacrifices to the fairies.
4) Her godmother was a fairy seer who had traffic with the fairies and who had taught Joan some of her witchcraft."  (StrangeHistory)

In support of this are other resources I had found (and I'm sure there are more out there), testimony regarding these accusations:

"On the subject of the Fairies' tree, I have heard that the Fairies came there long ago to dance; but, since the Gospel of Saint John has been read under the tree, they come no more. At the present day, on the Sunday when in the Holy Church of God the Introit to the Mass 'Laetare Jerusalem' is sung, called with us 'the Sunday of the Wells,' the young maidens and youths of Domremy are accustomed to go there, and also in the spring and summer and on festival days; they dance there and have a feast. On their return, they go dancing and playing to the Well of the Thorn, where they drink and amuse themselves, gathering flowers. Jeanne the Maid went there, like all the other girls at those times, and did as they did; but I never heard say that she went there alone, either to the tree or to the well which is nearer the village than the tree-or that she went for any other purpose than to walk about and play like her companions. When Jeanne left her father's house, she went two or three times to Vaucouleurs to speak to the Bailly. I heard it said that the Lord Charles, then Duke of Lorraine, wished to see her, and gave her a black horse." (Testimony of JEAN MOREL, of Greux, laborer, from stjoan-center.com)

So, anyone reading this can see that once there was a sort of cultus that the tree and the well were the focus of, common in the Faery Faith, that was overlaid by the wide-spread Christianization of France. Trees and wells are usually the homes of such creatures and a locus for interaction, even serving as points of entry into Faery (wither that's in the flesh or by soul-flight, I'll leave it up to you).

They say that since the Gospel of John was read there, the Faeries weren't seen there again...but I'm not so sure. This is the same spot where Jean the Maid often saw her own visions, though perhaps not all of them...St. Margaret appeared to her here, and, well, read it for yourself:

"Philibert, lord bishop of Coutances As far as I have been able to gather from these articles, this woman affirms that St. Michael and St. Gabriel with a host of angels, and St. Catherine and St. Margaret, appeared to her, sometimes near a fairy tree: that she bodily touched these saints who comforted her, and promised them, to keep her virginity. Then she was questioned about a certain tree growing near her village. To which she answered that, fairly near Domrémy, there was a certain tree called the Ladies’ Tree, and others called it the Fairies’ Tree; and near by is a fountain. And she has heard that people sick of the fever drink of this fountain and seek its water to restore their health; that, she has seen herself; but she does not know whether they are cured or not. She said she has heard that the sick, when they can rise, go to the tree and walk about it. It is a big tree, a beech, from which they get the fair May, in French le beau may; and it belongs, it is said, to Pierre de Bourlemont, knight. She said sometimes she would go playing with the other young girls, making garlands for Our Lady of Domrémy there; and often she had heard the old folk say (not those of her family) that the fairies frequented it. And she heard a certain Jeanne, the wife of mayor Aubery of Domrémy, her godmother, say that she had seen the fairies; but she herself doesn’t know whether it is true or not.. Asked if she saw them elsewhere, she does not know at all. She had seen the young girls putting garlands on the branches of the tree, and she herself sometimes hung them there with the other girls; sometimes they took them away, and sometimes they left them there." (StrangeHistory)

So, the tree was rededicated and miraculous events kept happening there, and it did not completely lose it's reputation for faery activity.

Hmmmmmmm...

I have no doubt that the beings that St. Joan saw there were saints and angels, but I think the faeries would not have stood being in close proximity to the conquering religion, unless some of them were agreeable to it. Rather than for the Queen of the Faeries, they make garlands for Our Lady...aren't there other Roman Catholic Marian sites that have a reputation for faery activity? (We'll come back to this.)


So what does Joan herself have to say about all this?

1. She said she did not know if faeries were evil or not.

Okay, keep in mind that Joan is expected to tell these people what they want to hear in hopes to live, and while she has a mind to her own danger, she usually does not. Joan saying "I don't know" usually means one of two things: She either really doesn't know or she definitely knows what she things, and she's not going to admit to it. Admitting that you had any positive opinion of the faeries at all was tantamount to saying "Hey, yeah, demons are my buddies": this isn't the reality of (most of) fairies, but most Catholics past and present don't know that.

Joan seems to take the road of denial, here. It's strange to me- she does not cave with the majority of belief, saying that fairies are certainly evil, but she doesn't sing their praises, either. She simply says, "I don't know." She doesn't help her case by this, either.

One thinks perhaps Joan may just be telling the truth. Faeries are as variated, or moreso, as we are. There are pagan fae and Christian fae and nature spirits, fae that are the Children of Eve and fae that are not, and fae who are, honestly, demons. There are angels that probably work closely with fae, as well. Are faeries good or evil? Maybe the real answer is, "It depends." But, you know, "I don't know" is also pretty honest.

"True, there was a common European idea that fairies were, like many of us, caught between heaven and hell, an idea that continued into the nineteenth century. But would you really admit this to a panel of clergymen?!  Joan had courage (so much courage), but she lacked theological smarts. It is telling that when she was accused of not denying the evil natures of fairies she did not seem to understand the accusation." (StrangeHistory)

Let's look at her other answers...from StrangeHistory, my primary source because I am lazy and if you wanna look into this more, you will on your own.

(2) There was a fairy tree (a beech, not an oak as in the picture from Andrew Lang’s children’s book above) and a fairy well (where the sick drank) in the environs of Domrémy. The locals claimed, according to Joan’s brother, that Joan had had her visions there. Re the appearance of St Catherine and St Margaret at the tree, she replied ‘I don’t know’. Given Joan’s understandable evasions, ‘I don’t know’ normally means one of two things in the trial records. ‘I can’t remember’, or ‘Yes, but I’m not foolish enough to admit it to you.’ Beach would guess the second in this instance. Joan did, in any case, admit that she saw saints (plural) at the fountain. She must have been aware that she was being set up and that the saints she saw were being cast as fairies and, therefore, demons. Incredibly she did not protect herself more forcefully saying only that ‘As far as she knew… she never saw the fairies at the tree.’

I've read that Beech trees are sacred to Odin...I mean, Druids...I mean, fairies! Fairies! Sacred to fairies! The rest of this point pretty much reads for itself.

3) Is the easiest to deal with. Jean admitted to sometimes dancing there as a child, and even to making garlands, but not to consorting with the fairies. She said that she made the garlands for the Madonna.

4) Her godmother Jeanne was the wife of the mayor. Joan said that this woman was ‘held and reputed to be an honest woman, and not a witch or sorceress’: yes, her godmother claimed to have seen fairies, ‘but [Joan] herself doesn’t know whether it is true or not’. Joan knew she was likely to die and was not going to criticize a loved one?

Joan later said that those who went out to dance on Thursdays around the fairy tree were guilty of Witchcraft...I wonder if she was drawing a line between honoring and worshipping, in her mind? Because despite this, Joan doesn't seem to want to overly criticize the fairies themselves. Or the people who went with her in good faith:

HAUVIETTE, wife of Gerard of Syonne, near Neufchâteau.

She was a good girl, simple and gentle; she went willingly and often to Church, and Holy places. Often she was bashful when others reproached her with going too devotedly to Church. There was a tree in the neighborhood that, from ancient days, had been called the Ladies' Tree. It was said formerly that ladies, called Fairies, came under this tree; but I never heard any one say they had been seen there. The young people of the village were accustomed to go to this tree, taking food with them, and to the Well of the Thorn (This is also called the "Fontaine aux Groseilliers"; the Latin name is probably intended for Rhamnus, the Buckthorn.) [Ad fontem Rannorum, or, "ad Rannos"] on the Sunday of 'Laetare Jerusalem.' (Mid-Lent Sunday, the 4th Sunday in Lent; so-called, because the introit for the day begins, "Laetare Jerusalem," ) called the Sunday of the Wells. I often went there with Jeanne, who was my friend, and with other young girls on the said Sunday of the Wells. We ate there, ran about, and played. Also, we took nuts to this tree and well. I did not know of Jeanne's departure: I wept much ; I loved her dearly for her goodness and because she was my friend. Jeanne was always with her father and mother at Neufchâteau. I also was at Neufchâteau, and saw her there all the time. (from stjoan-center.com)

Seems like the remnants of faery culture were still pretty wide-spread.

I find it interesting that, under oath and in the dubious hands of the Inquisition, Joan refused to wholly denounce the faery people (though she did their worship), when two well known saints, Patrick and Columba, were on the record for saying that they were no better than demons. (Though, that too depends on who you talk to...Columba has many, many stories about his dealings with the faery, and Patrick baptized Eithne, a maiden of the Tuatha De Dannan, much to the grief of Aengus Mac Og.) Makes one think, really.




There is one more point I want to make. Do you remember when I said something along the lines of the Cult of Our Lady replacing the Cult of the Faery Queene/ Faeries? Well, it's happened at a few other places, too.

There is a loooooong history of people confusing the Queene of Faery with the Blessed Mother...check out the link below if you want to peruse that. So, I'm not saying that this confusion is ALWAYS correct (since in the case of Thomas Rhymer and Tam Lin, it obviously was not), but I think that sometimes, it is. I think any faery who was a child of Eve, or was a Christian, would adore the Blessed Mother and take her as their queen, just as we have. And I don't think she would ignore them, or leave them alone, because Queen and Mother (Mother first) is what God created her to be.

Anyhoo.

I just thought I would mention...there is a reputation for White Ladies (a kind of faery) being honored at Lourdes. The Blessed Mother appeared as a Lady in White with a blue sash. While I do believe Our Lady of Lourdes is, in fact, Our Lady, I find it interesting that she chose to appear there clothed in such a similar manner.

It makes me wonder about Fatima.




http://www.strangehistory.net/2014/10/13/joan-ark-see-fairies/

http://www.stjoan-center.com/Trials/null03.html

http://www.strangehistory.net/2012/06/28/the-virgin-and-the-fairies/

http://www.aroundtheworldineightyyears.com/lourdes-france/

Monday, March 28, 2016

There is no such thing as Christian magick, Christian witchcraft, Christian theurgy, etc.

This may not be very expected coming from someone who asserts that she thinks shamanism and Christianity may have more in common than meets the eye. But I say it for a very specific reason.

There are mystical techniques that are common between the two. If you've done both shamanic spirit journeying (for lack of a better term) and Lectio Divina, then you get what I mean. Shamanism is a "bed rock" religion: pretty much every religion has grown out of it and you've got elements of it in everything. This does not mean that all shamanic practices are advised or legitimate. You have to use real discernment. There is magick in shamanism, but shamanism is not magick based- it's more of an earthy mystical practice that exists as a thread that runs through Christianity. The magick is optional, and is not core to its practice. There are more than one of these kinds of beliefs.


This was probably brought into the Church through the early Church's exposure to ancient mystery cults (particularly the Greeks) and also with what they carried with them from the synagogues once they were thrown out as a Jewish cult...shamanism is everywhere. If you compare Iamblichus and St. John of the Cross, you will see some beautiful and striking similarities. And there is nothing wrong with this. I prefer to think that the Christian mystics have polished the wisdom of the ancients and taken out the unnecessary, and the riff raff. I am not ashamed to say that, yes, my religion has pagan and Jewish roots...because no religion develops in a vacuum. That doesn't change the fact that Jesus is the Lord and God and King of us all, and that there is no God beyond the Most Holy Trinity. And perhaps God allowed these things to develop as they did so that they could be of use to those who were to come. I don't doubt that Pythagoras was an amazing guy. Don't throw the baby out with the bathwater, here...just because the way we read music is based on his theory of planetary vibration and that so much of out mathematics is based on Pythagorean spiritual principles, doesn't mean we have to quit with our modern conception of music (except maybe Pop music, but that's just me) or abandon our advances in math or science...just as we don't have to get rid of the Easter Bunny or Christmas Trees.


Yes, I'm a Vikings fan. Shut up.

Any synchronicity with ancient pagan religions is just a matter of course, and other religions too. You can still find traces of Ancient Egypt, Babylon and Cannan in Judaism. Christianity is still a mix of many things, according to region, but especially Judaism, Greek and Roman mystery cults, Middle Eastern practices and the pagan religious traits of Western Europe and the British Isles, baptized by our use and adoption...not by appropriation, but by the natural integration that comes from new beliefs superseding the old, by a people wanting the new ways without relinquishing their cultures. Islam even bears traces of the ancient polytheistic cults, and there is an echo of those ancient cultures even today. This is natural. This is not unholy- it does not make us polytheists or heretics. The pagans likely did about the same thing, and we know that the Hindus did to the previous inhabitants of India as well...pre-Vedic religions, anyone?

This isn't to say that we should just take what we want from other beliefs and call it ours and damn the origins, or compromise our own beliefs so we can incorporate what we want, as we want, forgetting that God has ordained it the way it is for a reason. The chakras of Hinduism have no place in Christianity not only because we can't hope to understand it beyond all the New Age crap out there, but because our own religion honestly doesn't have a place to accommodate it. What use are the chakras of Hindu yoga for a Christian who is seeking something more than what they can reveal, and only God can reveal? A reason why I am not all about Christians practicing Yoga- you're taking something specifically made for Hinduism and you're using it in a way that it wasn't meant to be used. These are prayers to the Hindu gods. It's like taking the Hail Mary and saying it because you like the way it sounds.

Shamanism is everywhere, and is in the spiritual DNA of all religions. You can integrate it because it's already there. The Bon Tradition of the Buddhists is a good example. These things that were integrated (well, as I think) are integrated because there was a place prepared for them. The people would not have won in their demand for the veneration of the Mother of God if God had not willed a place for it.

It's a balancing act, at least until the tradition is truly integrated, and that usually takes 100s of years.



But guys?

Magick. And. Christianity. Do. Not. Mix. EVER.

And you know what? YES. There can be a very, very fine line between the two. I used to not think so, but after spending my time with the Eastern Rite and feeling waves of what *almost* feels like thick, golden and brightly flashing theurgy, *almost*, I have to admit that it can be deceptive. And I know that people like to look at Catholic ritual, especially the practice of lighting candles to the saints or the Blessed Mother, as magick. But it's not. And I know there are magicians that use the psalms as spells and other things...that's blasphemous.



I've known of a lot of people who have insisted that they are Christians and magicians. They're usually so stuck on themselves, they can't see the Lord at all, and certainly talk more about themselves, or the other magick they're doing, not about the Lord.

In the end, magick is all about you. It doesn't matter what your excuse is...you can say it's all about your "gods", it's all about henosis, it's all about a number of things...and in the end, all I'm hearing about is you, not God. And magick, guys, is also all about *your* efforts and *your* power and *your* desires. Doing things on YOUR terms. And if it's about God, or union with God, that just isn't the way it works.

Fr. Larry Richards (who I think is awesome, even if he wouldn't agree with this blog) said that the fastest way to Hell is the attitude, "I did it my way." And he's right. This is the lure of magick...doing it your own way, gaining knowledge and becoming as "gods", accepting the promise of the serpent and eating the fruit that is forbidden.

The serpent was more clever than any of the wild animals the Lord God had made. The serpent said to the woman, “Did God really say, ‘You must not eat fruit from any tree in the garden’?”
The woman said to the serpent, “We may eat fruit from the trees in the garden. But God did say, ‘You must not eat the fruit from the tree in the middle of the garden. Do not even touch it. If you do, you will die.’ ”
“You will certainly not die,” the serpent said to the woman. “God knows that when you eat fruit from that tree, you will know things you have never known before. Like God, you will be able to tell the difference between good and evil.”
The woman saw that the tree’s fruit was good to eat and pleasing to look at. She also saw that it would make a person wise. So she took some of the fruit and ate it. She also gave some to her husband, who was with her. And he ate it. Then both of them knew things they had never known before. (Genesis, 3:1-7)

Forbidden, because no matter how much you learn, you will never know enough to protect yourself or get much of anywhere. Forbidden, because you learn to worship yourself and become your own "god". Forbidden, because I have never known any magician in all the time that I have known them (over a decade) where it wasn't really all about them in the end...myself included in that. And what an empty purpose...living only for yourself.

Christianity is Christo-centric, and the way anything is done at all is by relying on God. The mass works not just because we have the "right" rituals, but because we open ourselves to God's work. It's an act of Faith. Magick is an act of Will. And I think it'll be true but trite to say here that it's not supposed to be "...my will, but Thine be done."

For me, that's the biggest key. There are times I REALLY do a double take, as a Catholic. But then I sit and let it flow through me, and I understand the difference. This isn't my will, this isn't the will of the priest, this isn't the will of the spirits or angels (or even demons) that are present for the mass or the rites of the Catholic Church...this is the will of God, or it would not happen at all. Our efforts are the extent of our own consent to God's work, and God is the main mover...it is not that we are the movers and shakers getting God's attention and directing Him, or constraining Him, or even supplicating Him for our own sakes. This is God allowing Himself to be moved for ours.



What looks like magick in Christianity is mysticism.
The mass is not theurgy, it's a mystical rite of sacrifice in which God fills the Church and YOU with Himself.
Lighting candles to the Blessed Mother are not magick...the real magic is in the prayer and the love between you and her...the candle is just a nice gift, a symbol of your intention, a light in your dark place. Not necessary.
The psalms are not spells...they are songs of praise, supplication and penitence to the God above All.
The Lord does not need to be "fed" with our love, with our energy, to enact anything or to survive, like so many of the other pagan "gods". He simply is. He wants our love because He loves us, and the extent to which we consent to Him, the extent that He is able to intervene in our lives (according to His will.)

Magick is about power over others, even to heal. Magick is about power, period. What if you could only take what was good and non-sinful and give it to the Most High God? What if only you could serve the Lord with what you can salvage out and scrap the rest?

"All practices of magic or sorcery, by which one attempts to tame occult powers, so as to place them at one’s service and have a supernatural power over others—even if this were for the sake of restoring their health—are gravely contrary to the virtue of religion. These practices are even more to be condemned when accompanied by the intention of harming someone, or when they have recourse to the intervention of demons. Wearing charms is also reprehensible. Spiritism often implies divination or magical practices; the Church for her part warns the faithful against it. Recourse to so-called traditional cures does not justify either the invocation of evil powers or the exploitation of another’s credulity. (CCC 2117)"

Some of this is strictly my opinion, and therefore suspect. Some of this is just the flat out truth.
And if you don't like it, tough. I don't make the rules. I just obey them. As best as I can.